Jan 30, 2011

Well work was a success! (Hopefully my boss thinks so too! lol)
It all went well and I seem to remember most of what I was supposed to do and didn't make any mistakes. :)
I worked a long day on Saturday and I talked about going home for lunch, but the thought of one of them even making a small comment about me staying home was not something I wanted to think about. But other than that one thought, I was totally fine...no tears :) And infact, when I got home on Saturday, the only one happy to see me was Zachary...the other two wanted Jan to stay! So while it's nice to feel loved, there is a lot of comfort knowing they are so happy with the person who it here in my absence.
Working yesterday sure made the weekend feel short and it's hard to believe we're back into the regular routine tomorrow.

Can I say again at how proud I am of Zachary?! My camera seemed to be MIA today :( Which was truly sad as I had a couple perfect video moments of him standing up and even taking a couple steps around the toy he had climbed on (criusing style). So hopefully the camera will appear soon and you won't have to just read my description of what he's doing, you'll be able to share in a bit of my joy. :)

Jan 26, 2011


Boy am I exhausted...this day really took the wind out of me.
Zachary was scheduled for a routine MRI back in December, but do to an illness (that ended up lasting almost 2 months) it was rescheduled. And today was the big day. We received our dieting restrictions, because he had to be sedated. I stressfully planned how I was going to get everyone where they needed to be and we were out of the house by 7.45am.  I kept Carter out of school, just because of logistics since he and Peyton are at different schools this year. So he came along with us, and the 'us' includes my Mom, who graciously offered to come along and I am so thankful she did.
So after leaving Peyton at the bus stop, we headed off to the 401. For those of you not familiar with this heavily traveled highway, it is jammed from 6am to 10am for rush hour traffic...not so fun.  We were to be there for 10 to check in (we were told to be very prompt or the appt would be cancelled) and our appointment was for 11. So we were very prompt, however they were not.  I was told they were running about an hour and a half behind. Not so fun news when you have a fasting baby! But of course Zachary was a rockstar, not a peep out of him! He was happy the whole time. He was taken in just after noon and we were to come back about an hour later. I was in with him while they were putting him to sleep and it was very hard to walk away from him. That was when the day took the wind out of me. I felt a flood of emotions as I left.  And then I felt sort of dumb..."it's only an MRI!...we have been through much worse" But it's funny how you never know when those thoughts are going to sneak up on you.
So we came back and waited and waited and waited.... 2 1/2hours later and I was able to go see him.  I think he was just as exhausted from the day as I was, and was enjoying his nap :)
So needless to say I was very late getting Peyton from school (don't worry a wonderful friend of mine came to my rescue and picked him up). And because of everything taking longer, we were smack in the middle of afternoon rush hour!  So it was after 5pm that Zachary finally ate something again, almost 24hrs but he was smiles the whole day.  He truly never ceases to amaze me :)
So we spent 4 hours in traffic, 3 1/2 hours waiting, for an hour MRI (yes there is 1/2 hour missing...took that long to get the IV in :( 
All I can say now, is thank you for listening to me vent out my day, that took a greater toll on my emotions than I thought it would.

And wish me luck tomorrow as I head back to work!  Boy a year flies by!

Jan 24, 2011

I was finally able to catch Zachary in action standing and getting up on all fours.

Prepare to be amazed, you are about to witness a miracle...

Jan 23, 2011

So I think it is safe to say that Zachary is pulling himself up to stand! He can't pull himself up on everything (like the couch, he can't quite get a grip on it), but the bottom of the stairs and his fisher price chair toy are consistently being used as standing devices. He also likes to stand on all fours...like a downward dog. Tonight I even watched him stand up, fix his feet and take one step closer to where he wanted to be...that was a little tear jerker for me.  Am I actually able to think about him walking at a developmentally appropriate age? The one thing I found while I was pregnant, I couldn't think about any scenario, because I didn't have all the variables. I am totally a data/fact person.  And the same has gone with all the milestones Zachary reaches...do I get excited now, or am I jumping the gun and it really doesn't mean anything.  Boy, as I write this it sure sounds like I'm pretty pessimistic!...lol  Truly I'm not :)...(says all the pessimistic people LOL) I really am a hopeless romantic, optimistic to the core, data loving person...and yes you can mix the two. :)
Anyways, so it's hard for me to put into words my mixed emotions of feeling like I always knew he would do these things, and realizing the joy that he IS actually doing these things.
But I am celebrating, celebrating a moment that was meant to happen, but is no less a miracle.

Jan 22, 2011

Peyton lost his first tooth! He has been wiggling that thing for the past week or so, anxiously awaiting when it would finally dislodge itself.  Then finally at 3.24AM, he proudly came in to wake me up letting my know it had fallen out. He said "it almost went down to my belly, but I stopped it"...I was glad he didn't swallow it. :)
He wanted to take it to school the next day to show his teacher and friends and then last night was the big night to see if the tooth fairy would appear.
I'm not usually a big fan of made up characters that children whole heartedly believe in, but the tooth fairy doesn't seem to bother me (I think I'm not a fan of Santa or the Easter Bunny, because they take away from real celebration). I was actually quite excited to sneak in his room and slowly and cautiously switch the tooth for some money.
It feels like kids get through all their "firsts" in the first two years of their life. It was really fun to be apart of a first for Peyton that he will actually remember.

My toothless monster :)

Jan 20, 2011

Well once again here I am back from a blogging hiatus.  I didn't even post about Zachary turning 11 months! I have had a grand time catching up on all the blogs I follow, but have neglected my own (good thing I'm not all that exciting and don't have too many people following me...)
I have been busy doing nothing...well nothing notable anyways. Zachary did turn 11 months, and once again I'm at a loss as to where the time goes.
I go back to work next week...:(  Thankfully I am part-time and can enjoy the best of both worlds, a little adult time and still being with my kids the majority of the time.
The next month serves to be a busy one. I have 9 appointments in the next 5 weeks, it always seems ot work that way. We haven't been to TO since Zachary's surgery in September and now we find ourselves there 3 times in 3 weeks.  We finally have Zachary's MRI, we originally had to cancel the one in December because he was sick.  Unfortuately that sickness hasn't really gone away (although should be fine to be sedated), I think he might have seasonal asthma. We also have the post op for his surgery (I had to call to get that one booked...longer story, but very annoyed that they didn't even know what was going on and I had to inform them that we only had so long before the second surgery had to be completed).
Over all he is doing so well. His crawling gets him everywhere, and he is now attempting to pull himself up! I'm at that crossroads of wanting him to do everything and feeling so blessed for how far he's come.  I think I'm starting to get used to the "hurry up and wait" feeling (well not really used to it, but trying to realize it's our new reality :))

Here's my little man at 11 months

This boy loves the iPod...

Sporting his new cap my girlfriend made for him