Jan 23, 2012


vb -gives, -giving, -gave, -given

1. to cease to blame or hold resentment against (someone or something)

2. to grant pardon for (a mistake, wrongdoing, etc.)

3. (tr) to free or pardon (someone) from penalty

4. (tr) to free from the obligation of (a debt, payment, etc.)
(collins english dictionary)
I said to Ryan last week that I think 2012 is going to be a good year for us.  Looking at 2011, it felt hard. My heart hurt in the beginning of the year as all the trauma (or whatever word you may choose to use) from Zachary's birth hit me like a tonne of bricks. That subsided around April and truly life was good the rest of the year. But this year I have a feeling will be a great one.
I started off this post with the definition of forgiveness...
Something I had to do for myself this past week. I realized I had been holding on to a lot of blame from Zachary having Spina Bifida.  It wasn't a huge burden that I felt I carried all the time, but as time went on, slowly but surely it crept up on me and landed this week. I knew I had to deal with it.
It brought a few tears of course and hopefully a renewed sense of freedom that can only come with a true forgiven heart.

Thanks to those who still follow my blog :) I wish I had more time to sit and share my crazy life with you more often.


  1. I agree with you about 2012! I think it's going to be a GREAT year! I think both your family and ours need a year without medical issues! :)

  2. I hope 2012 will be a great year for us as well. :) And we could all take a page out of the book of forgiveness - it's hard to let go of things, especially things that involve our kids, and ESPECIALLY things that we play the "what if" game with. But we have to let go and just keep moving forward in order to enjoy the life we have now, and all it's little blessings. :)

  3. So glad to see you back!
    I completely understand. Sometimes it just creaps up on you and you don't even realize that it's there.
    I think we need a playdate soon!

  4. So much about this sneaks up on you, whether you want it to or not. Facing it is inevitable. But then move forward and don't look back. I hope 2012 is awesome for you!!

  5. Hey! We’re putting on an online live Q&A with Dr. Levitt from Cincinnati Children’s Hospital about fecal incontinence related to spina bifida, on February 22nd, 2012 at 7:00pm ET. If you’d like to participate in the event, you can RSVP here: http://www.eventbrite.com/event/2912706985. If you’re interested in hosting the event on your site or blog and would like some more info, please contact me, John Martin at john (at) partnershub.com. Thanks!