Forgiveness

forgive
vb -gives, -giving, -gave, -given

1. to cease to blame or hold resentment against (someone or something)

2. to grant pardon for (a mistake, wrongdoing, etc.)

3. (tr) to free or pardon (someone) from penalty

4. (tr) to free from the obligation of (a debt, payment, etc.)
(collins english dictionary)
 
 
I said to Ryan last week that I think 2012 is going to be a good year for us.  Looking at 2011, it felt hard. My heart hurt in the beginning of the year as all the trauma (or whatever word you may choose to use) from Zachary's birth hit me like a tonne of bricks. That subsided around April and truly life was good the rest of the year. But this year I have a feeling will be a great one.
I started off this post with the definition of forgiveness...
Something I had to do for myself this past week. I realized I had been holding on to a lot of blame from Zachary having Spina Bifida.  It wasn't a huge burden that I felt I carried all the time, but as time went on, slowly but surely it crept up on me and landed this week. I knew I had to deal with it.
It brought a few tears of course and hopefully a renewed sense of freedom that can only come with a true forgiven heart.

Thanks to those who still follow my blog :) I wish I had more time to sit and share my crazy life with you more often.