Forgiveness

forgive
vb -gives, -giving, -gave, -given

1. to cease to blame or hold resentment against (someone or something)

2. to grant pardon for (a mistake, wrongdoing, etc.)

3. (tr) to free or pardon (someone) from penalty

4. (tr) to free from the obligation of (a debt, payment, etc.)
(collins english dictionary)
 
 
I said to Ryan last week that I think 2012 is going to be a good year for us.  Looking at 2011, it felt hard. My heart hurt in the beginning of the year as all the trauma (or whatever word you may choose to use) from Zachary's birth hit me like a tonne of bricks. That subsided around April and truly life was good the rest of the year. But this year I have a feeling will be a great one.
I started off this post with the definition of forgiveness...
Something I had to do for myself this past week. I realized I had been holding on to a lot of blame from Zachary having Spina Bifida.  It wasn't a huge burden that I felt I carried all the time, but as time went on, slowly but surely it crept up on me and landed this week. I knew I had to deal with it.
It brought a few tears of course and hopefully a renewed sense of freedom that can only come with a true forgiven heart.

Thanks to those who still follow my blog :) I wish I had more time to sit and share my crazy life with you more often.

Peyton is 7

7!?! I can hardly believe it.  I actually spend a good chunck of the day reminscing about his birth day, how aour sweet boy made me a Mom, made us parents. Other than eating CONSTANTLY in the beginning, he was such an easy baby. Calm, passive, content, smart (if I do so say myself). There was no lack of joy he brought me. When I get upset at him now, I try to think back to him being that little first born boy of ours and how I never yelled at him unitl Carter came along (oh Carter we love you).
He has adapted to so much over the past 7 years, and is still such a sweet boy. Now that he is in grade two, I wish I could bottle up everything about him. He is acting all grown up and can express so much, I can have a real conversation with him.
I pray he uses his brain for something wonderful, that he can use his perfectionism for greatness. That he stays sweet and grows into a wonderful gentleman.

Peyton we love you and thank you for making me a Mom!

Miraculous!

We had a follow up appointment with urology today. I had told our Dr. in September that I had stopped giving Zachary Ditropan (a medication that slows the bladder down as Zachary has a bladder that works over time) a few months before.
Anyways, he wasn't very impressed that I didn't discuss it with him first, although I had expressed my dislike of the medicine when I saw him at SB Clinic in April.
So of course he wanted to see him in a few months to see how his bladder and kidneys were tolerating the lack of meds. Which is what brought us to today.
We had our ultra sound and after a long wait finally saw the Dr. And after a mix up on his part as to why we were there, he went and retrieved our ultrasound results.
And get this...his bladder is looking even better than the last one we had!!! Can you believe it?! He still has a neurogenic bladder and will still need some sort of medical intervention for his bladder later on...but for now all is looking well!
Just wanted to share our exciting news and apologize for our absence lately :)