I was reading a book recently about spina bifida and at the end of each chapter they had parents thoughts and comments regarding their experiences.
One of the comments has stuck with me. She was mentioning how special children are given to special parents, something we have been told a lot since we found out about Zachary. But she also added that sometimes it's not about the faith we have in God, but about the faith He has in us.

Our faith has played the largest part in all of this. We have leaned completely on God to know all things work together. But what an awesome thought that God would have enough faith (the actual definition of faith wouldn`t really apply to God...but in any case) in Ryan and I to raise the two boys we already have as well as Zachary and whatever may come.
This does not just apply to those who have a child with special needs (again a phrase I`m not fond of...but you know what I mean), but in all our lives.
I know enough people that are going through tough times right now.  Real life changing experiences.  And to think that God has enough faith in you to show others what He means in your life.  ``Make the most of every opportunity,`` one of my favourite verses, one that I constantly try to remember (of course not always easy when your in the eye of the storm).  God gives us each opportunity to live out our faith.

My oldest son Peyton has been asking questions about dying and heaven. Not always easy questions to answer.  I don`t lie to my children, but I still need to respond in age appropriate answers.  He once asked me why we were on earth. I asked a few more questions to try and determine the root of his question. It turns out he truly did want to know why we were even here.  The first thing that came to mind was to tell other people about God.  And as I said it, I thought, how true it was.  While we are here to worship God and believe that He sent His Son to die for our sins, what good is it if we never even tell anyone about it. And we have nothing to tell if we don`t already do the previous sentence.

This post sort of took me in a direction I wasn`t intending, it has a lot of thoughts that have really been important in my life the last few months.  Trying to raise my boys that they make a decision to follow Jesus, and live out my life in a way that is an example to those around me.  I always want to keep a greater perspective and remember life is not always about me and my situation.  Knowing that God has enough faith in me to send circumstances my way so that His glory can be seen.

Well it was a busy weekend. Ryan was out Friday night, so it was just me and the boys. Saturday I went out for a little bit to shop and then headed over to my mother in laws for the afternoon. She has Ryan do some sort of labour task for Mothers Day. I think it's a great idea and might remember it for when my boys are grown up. After supper we went to visit some friends and just hung out. We watched the movie The Proposal...boy was it funny. We got home around 1ish and then after feeding Zachary, headed to bed. We then had a busy Sunday, as we took off to Waterloo for a birthday party. Here's where the real adventure begins. Of course we were a wee bit tired from the night before, a got a slower start than we were suppose to. Our kids aren't used to long car rides, which actually makes me a little sad. Means we don't go anywhere! Regardless they had a movie on and played their DS's. We were almost there when Ryan realized he needed to get some money. So we pulled into a plaza and all of a sudden I hear Carter say "Mom, there's stuff coming out of Peyton's mouth." I turn to look and there is Peyton sitting with a stunned look on his face and throw up down the front of him. And then the gagging starts again. So now we are on a quest to find some clothes. I hadn't packed anything for them of course. As we were driving, Carter is then saying he has to pee, and Zachary is crying the hungry cry. We find a National Sports and Ryan takes us to the back part of the parking lot so I can have Carter pee (don't think less of me that I allowed my 3 year old to pee outside...desperate times call for desperate measures). Then I started to get the clothes off Peyton, and wipe up what I could from the van. After that was done I quickly tried to satisfy Zachary's hunger. So now we are over an hour and a half late for the party, that is only 4 hours long. So we had a good time seeing friends we don't get to see very often and then started off back home. So we left at 9.30am and got back home at 5.20pm for a 2 hour visit :) lol
It was one of those very comic moments in life as a parent. Needless to say I was in bed just after 9! Thankfully Zachary slept until 5.

This morning Carter woke up with a headache. Maybe insignficant, but he has been having them here and there for a little bit now. And this particular one started in the car ride yesterday. He hasn't changed any behaviours at this point, but I'm still not happy that my 3 year old is complaining of head pain.
To top that off, Peyton woke up with a sore throat. His third in the last 2 months :(. So he is home from school.
While Carter misses Peyton when he's gone and sort of drives me crazy during that time. I can get a more done on those days in the way of going out in about. So I'm not sure I will get to the things that I had planned for today unfortunately. Oh well. It looks like a tornado hit my kitchen, so maybe that should be cleaned up instead. :)

But in other news...Zachary has started to get a bald spot on the back of his head! While this may seem like a silly thing to post about, it is one of those things that he didn't have because he was on his side or stomach. So I took a picture :)

I stumbled upon this video last year. At that time, I fowarded it to a friend of mine who was going through a very hard time. Ironically, we found out about Zachary and his spina bifida 5 days later and it quickly became a source of strength for me. It continues to be one of my favourite songs and one that I draw on quite frequently.
All of my life in every season...may I always remember that no matter what.
God is Good